I Have Been Hiding My Pain Behind A Wall Of Smiles

For one year I have been hiding my pain behind a wall of smiles. For 365 days only a few knew about the tragedy that enveloped my life exactly 1 year ago. In public I have been strong. In private I have been a wreck. But Temidayo, in the last 7 days, I have only cried twice and woken up once in shock and sweat. Dayo, I have been strong. I have been weak.

But I have been with you to many places you and I went when you were still here. This week I was with you in Zandvoort, the last town in North Holland you were with your best friend. You were the first person to ever call me daddy. I will do everything till my last breath to make you be proud of me. I am still in shock. But I have peace

Oh yeah, Dayo. I found an interview I did with you 8 years ago. I had completely forgotten and never edited the video. Now I have! Beautiful and thoughtful answers from a beautiful and thoughtful person! The interview and the videos of our journey together in the past 365 days, and the solo podcast I made around the 6th week of your passing will be uploaded to my private YouTube channel so that you will live forever.